+18 IF Route: Chapter 5: A Distorted World and A Dull Sky ♀

"..."

I left the house and quietly looked up at the sky.

I don't know how long it's been since I've been outside.

I had long since lost all sense of time, but thankfully it was now late at night.

It's the perfect time for the imprisoned girl to go out with her master.

When I left my house...or rather the mansion, I saw the place where I lived for the first time.

I never imagined that I would be living in such a big mansion.

Above all, I was surprised by the numerous spells that had been cast around it to prevent me from escaping.

I can see how worried Trust must have been about my escape.

Unfortunately, that kind of magic has never been activated.

However... the outside world, which I saw for the first time in a long time, looked even duller than I had expected.

This world drives Trust into a corner.

The Hero was so cornered that he could no longer trust anyone and ended up imprisoning the girl he loves.

To be honest, the world didn't seem as beautiful to me as it used to.

Or perhaps... my mind was trapped in that closed world where I didn't have to think about anything.

"Filia, are you okay?"

Trust looks worried.

Maybe it was because we'd spent so much time together, but he seemed to notice that I was feeling anxious.

I'm glad about that for some reason.

It makes me feel like he understands me.

"Thank you. I'm fine."

To be honest, it's not really fine.

I have a complicated feeling of pain and tingling around my buttocks, making it difficult to walk.

That's because right up until that moment, my anus had been drilled and I had experienced the utmost ecstasy.

It wasn't so intense that I was completely defeated, but it was still amazing.

I never thought that as a former man, I would feel that much pleasure from having my anus violated.

The pleasure was so strong that any feelings of disgust were easily blown away.

Even so, even if I say that both our bodies and souls are compatible, that's still abnormal.

It's not just my anus, but just being touched feels good, so it's a bit late to say this.

But on the other hand, this means that you can enjoy even the most perverted sex.

Well... it's a bit embarrassing, but now that I've gotten over it, it's actually exciting.

That's why I suggested having sex in the open.

It feels like I've taken the first step towards becoming a pervert.

"Well, I don't even know where I am. Can you show me around?"

"Yeah, leave it to me."

We said this to each other and walked arm in arm.

There was no hope for the outside world, but instead, I relied on Trust.

However, I had heard in my lifetime that living without light for a long period of time can lead to blindness.

Maybe I was lucky because it was night, but I didn't feel any particular pain, so I think it's okay.

Or maybe this body is especially strong in that area.

"How is it going outside after so long?"

"Hmm... I think the scary part is probably stronger."

I answer honestly about how I feel.

I dismissed everything as unimportant and accepted that small world.

I don't know how much time has passed since then, but the more my sense of time becomes dull, the more my perception of the world outside becomes out of sync.

Before I know it, the outside world becomes something I can't understand...and it becomes frightening.

So please protect me from this world.

"……ah"

This statement may be synonymous with saying that Trust should be held responsible.

Because he has imprisoned me and locked me up.

Of course, I have no intention of blaming Trust in the slightest.

But scary things are scary.

"This way."

Follow the direction I am being led to.

It's late at night, but it seems like there aren't many people around here.

There was no sign of anyone around, and the area was filled with the silence that is unique to the night.

After walking for a while, a small forest came into view.

Even though it's a city, it seems that it's not completely devoid of plants.

Well, in modern terms, it would be a park or something like that.

"..."

Eventually, it seemed we had reached our destination and Trust stopped.

What is distinctive about this place are the fairly large trees located deep in the forest.

That's right... it would be safe to use that as support and have sex.

Apparently Trust had the same thought, so we naturally headed towards the tree.

"...Is it too hard to just put it in all of a sudden?"

Trust muttered as I placed my hands on the tree as if I was being held down.

In fact, my lower body was already primed from the intense prelude before going out, but I was also interested in the caresses I would receive during outdoor sex.

I no longer have any aversion in sexual matters.

Or rather, because I was treated like a pervert, I had developed a tolerance for that sort of thing.

"Hmm..."

Just as I was becoming aware of my awakened perversion, the caresses began.

First, as always, he attacks my breasts.

"Ahh... Ah..."

Due to the repeated orgasms and development up to now, even a little teasing brings on a surge of pleasure.

Then, without any delay, a finger entered my vagina.

"Hmmmm....Ahhh..."

Since no one had touched the inside of my vagina today, I felt like what I was craving had been fulfilled.

As the erogenous zones, which are the most sensitive of all, are stimulated with focus, my body begins to melt.

If I was teased for a long time, this alone would probably make me climax, but this is just the opening act.

In fact, doing it outside is more exciting than I thought it would be.

"Ahh... hmm..."

While I was thinking about such pointless things, Trust's open mouth began to lick the nape of my neck.

Perhaps because it was a surprise attack, it sent shivers down my spine.

Moreover, he persistently runs his tongue over it and plays with it.

It felt good and I accepted it.

"We're outside, so don't speak too loudly, okay?"

I nodded.

Yes, this is outside.

No matter how good I feel, I can't speak loudly.

Even if it's late at night, there's a chance someone might see us.

The risk leads to pleasure.

"Mmmmm... ahhh..."

My lower body feels itchy as it comes into contact with the fresh air that is unique to the outdoors.

The feeling that this is not a safe place stimulates my instincts and my uterus begins to ache.

However, from now on, he will be using contraception and will no longer be ejaculating inside my vagina.

As someone who has climaxed just from the sensation of my uterus being filled with semen, I feel like this is not enough.

"Ah..."

While I was feeling a little dissatisfied with this, a finger was inserted into my back hole.

At the same time, the relentless anal stimulation that had been inflicted on me before going out flashed through my mind.

It felt just as good as having my uterus violated.

...But that's still a finger.

What would happen if a dick was inserted?

This is a thought that you wouldn't expect from a former man.

The anus is a part of the body that men also have.

When you think of homosexual sex between men, anal sex comes to mind.

It also gives the impression of being dug up, and for former men it is a symbol of disgust.

Even I couldn't accept it.

...Until yesterday.

Today, when I was actually raped, I felt really bad.

I was only reluctantly putting up with it because the other person was Trust, but if it had been someone else I think I would have killed him.

But Trust's stimulation...how should I put it, it felt really good.

It feels like he accept not only my superficial side, but even my dirty parts.

Above all, Trust has been incredibly kind since then and has believed in me.

It was fine because I had no intention of running away in the first place, but he also removed my handcuffs and leg irons and even gave me some clothes.

Furthermore, we are going out, which is the most taboo thing when confined.

Perhaps because of all these good things happening one after another, my disgust had disappeared.

From Trust's perspective, he must be scared.

Late at night with poor visibility.

If I seriously try to shake off Trust now, there is a good chance I can get away with it.

Despite all that anxiety and risk, he still believed in me.

So... I want to accept him.

"It's okay now, Trust-sama."

"...Is that really okay? You don't want that, right?"

Trust is worried now.

I guess I hated even touching myself with fingers, so he thought a cock would be even more than that.

That was actually true, but it didn't matter anymore.

"I don't hate it anymore."

As I turned around facing the tree and bending my waist, shaking my butt in front of him and said that. His penis, which had been slightly flaccid during our walk, suddenly became erect, visible even through his trousers.

Very easy to understand.

The feminine side of me that has recently begun to emerge feels a strange sense of accomplishment, and I feel a little good.

"Please do it while my feelings remain firm."

After I told him that I had already made up my mind, Trust pulled out his penis.

His cock, which had been left alone for hours, was even more impressive than usual.

It's bigger and firmer than usual.

I was a little worried about whether this would go in, but I couldn't back out now.　

A man needs courage.

Women also have courage.

Since I have two senses, I should be able to combine them to become something else.

So, accept the mixed emotions of pleasure, anticipation, fear, etc. as they are.

"Hmm...ugh..."

Just as I made up my mind, his penis touched my anus.

It had opened up a bit from the caresses he had been giving it, but it still felt tight.

I relaxed as much as I could...no, I used force to widen my anus, just like when excreting.

"Hmmmm...!!!"

Then, the penis slid in at the same time.

I instinctively tenses up and squeezes the penis tightly.

However, once it gets in, it seems to be fine and keeps pushing forward.

The mixture of love juices and soap that had seeped out during the caresses before going out moistened the inside of my rectum, and the penis went deeper and deeper into her.

"Hgghhh..."

With a slurp, the walls of the intestines are torn apart, and air leaks from my throat.

The spot where it hit pressed against the back of my uterus, and I was hit with a pleasure that felt like I was being hit on the top of my head.

"Gyuuu... ngghh..."

Trust immediately noticed my condition and started tapping on that spot.

At that moment, his vision flickers.

There's no time to even be confused by the completely unknown pleasure.

Furthermore, in an attempt to intensify the pleasure, Trust touches my stomach...and presses just below my belly button.

That's exactly it...

"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!?"

The climax from anal sex came sooner than I expected.

My uterus was pressed from the ventral side, and the rectum was stimulated just as if it was stimulating the back of my uterus, and the pressure was so shocking that it raised the peak of pleasure to the sky without any explanation.

"Ugh...hugyuuu..."

Of course, even when I climaxes, the torture with his penis doesn't stop.

The back of the uterus...a place that you normally can't physically feel.

From the first time I had sex, my uterus was an erogenous zone that brought me intense pleasure.

My natural erogenous zones have been developed through previous sex and modified to be more sensitive.

"Gyuu...hi...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!?"

The repeated orgasms bring new pleasure to my erogenous zones, and I can't stop climaxing.

Not only does the back side being pushed up by the penis bring pleasure, but the pressure from the hand on the abdomen also brings pleasure, and the uterus becomes like a switch that triggers climax.

Cervical mucus gushed out from the cervix inside the vagina.

"Hii... ngh..."

Perhaps due to the effects of having multiple orgasms in a matter of minutes, various bodily fluids spurt out from all over my body.

The quality of the pleasure has now become so high that it has even reached the point of pain, but even that pain feels good.

This is done outside, in a damp forest.

A sense of liberation, a sense of danger, shame, and pleasure all struggled, and pleasure won.

"Highhh...ahh..."

Soon, thrusting in the rectum begins.

I had forgotten about it due to the succession of intense orgasms, but there was no way for Trust to stop when I came to climaxing.

The unique flesh walls inside the rectum encase the penis.

"Huh... ah... mmm..."

Although it is not as pleasurable as having my uterus stimulated from behind, now that I have become sensitive due to the continuous orgasms, I feels pleasure no matter what is done to me.

In fact, this is just right compared to pleasure that is too sharp.

No, even this should be intense, but it's tolerable because I've found something even more intense to compare it to.

And I have the luxury of enjoying that pleasure.

"Ah ah ah... mmm..."

Although I feel a little lonely being able to enjoy pleasure through my anus, I can't stop.

A lewd smile forms on my face as I feel the pleasure of having a cock dug into my squishy rectum, which is different from the inside of my vagina.

My heart, which had even destroyed its pride as a man, was being repaired by something else.

But it definitely has a different shape...

"Hyaah... hmm..."

Even the moans that come out of my throat are accompanied by pleasure.

I know I shouldn't be so loud, but I can't stop.

However, it feels so good that I can't resist it.

"Gyuuuu~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!?"

Occasionally, the uterus and the area behind it are stimulated, and this body, which doesn't know when to endure, periodically climaxes.

Still, I accepts the pleasure coming from the cock thrusting into my ass.

"Ugh... I'm cumming..."

Even though I was so overwhelmed by climax that I couldn't understand what was going on, I could still hear his voice.

That's why I want to give his penis the ultimate pleasure.

This feeling is... right.

Perhaps it was the inherent lewdness of my body, or perhaps it was the perversion born from my heart, or perhaps both of these mixed together in a distorted way, squeezing the penis.

Then, endure the pleasure that would make me climax if I did nothing, and adjust to the moment.

"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!?"

The penis was thrust deep inside, and the tip of the glans began to ejaculate.

At the same time, I accepts the pleasure I had been holding back and lets out the climax that had been building up.

"Hmmmm... hmmmm..."

After enduring for hours, the man's desire had become thick and sticky, staining the inside of my rectum white.

Twice, three times, four times, the cock bounces up and down periodically, spurting out semen.

I received all of that hot, boiling semen.

All of my strength left my body and I let go of the tree.

Just as I was about to lose my support and fall to the ground, Trust grabbed me and stopped me.

"Hmm~... Trust-sama~..."

Even I couldn't believe my own voice, and I was internally shaken by the coquettish voice, but my mind, dulled by the climax, didn't react.

What's more, I end up saying exactly what I think.

"Huh...what is it?"

"Please, one more time..."

"It's a tempting offer, but...no."

"Huh...?"

After being rejected, I think with a dull mind.

Still unable to come up with an answer, I regained consciousness as I took heavy breaths.

As my mind began to recover, I checked my situation.

A milky white liquid leaks out from the anus after the penis is pulled out.

The sweat is getting cold as it comes into contact with the air.

My body is completely limp due to the afterglow of the orgasm.

Above all, this is outdoors, not indoors.

It's not a good place to play second or third round matches.

"S-sorry.... It was just too amazing..."

"That's fine. Besides, it's nice to be wanted."

He said gently and stroked my head.

Well, I guess we have to go home, I thought, tensing my hips.

But I can't put any strength into it.

"Huh? Hmmmm!"

I put strength into my waist to try and stand up, but I can't move.

All that remained was the tiredness and euphoria from the orgasm, and I didn't even twitch.

"Sorry... I lost my balance..."

"No, I'm the one who should be apologizing. I was too harsh."

Trust said, trying to hug me.

Suddenly... it crossed my mind.

"I am heavy and the distance is long, so please carry me."

"Filia is light, so it'll be fine."

"Something good will happen if you carry me, hehe~"

I gave Trust a devilish little laugh and then he opened his mouth with a puzzled look on his face.

"If Filia says so, then I will."

Trust said as he carried me on his back.

I put my arms around his shoulders and he carried me completely.

Then I pressed my chest tight against Trust's back.

"...!"

Trust reacting a little.

He didn't say anything in particular, but the awkward atmosphere was fun.

I'm not bragging, but I have big breasts.

Above all, it's firm and fun to massage.

Any man would be happy to have those breasts against his back all the way back to that room.

"Right? Something good happened, right?"

"...That's true."

I lean my body against Trust's back as he nods.

It had been some time since he'd been in battle, but it was the back of a strong warrior.

•

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"How is it?"

After returning to my confinement room and resting for a bit to recover, I cooked something using the cooking equipment Trust had bought for me.

Fortunately, I was able to cook the food according to my knowledge, so Trust is enjoying it.

Furthermore, there was a possibility of poison cooking, so a taste test was done.

It's unthinkable to make someone you love eat something that tastes bad.

In the end, I think the tasting went well.

Even with the skills this body possessed, I was efficient and didn't waste any ingredients.

At least it won't taste bad.

"Yup, it's delicious."

Look at Trust's face after he eats the food.

That's not a flattering expression.

The only thing left to consider was seasoning and personal preference... The food he usually buy has a strong flavor, so I adjusted it a bit to suit that, but I wonder if this was a success.

I'll try it myself.

"Hmm, maybe around 70 points?"

"Is the comparison standard with the take out?"

"Of course."

Since my confinement began, I've been eating take out a lot.

In fact, when I was in Nerisford, I basically ate at the inn, so it was like eating take out too.

"It's true that the taste may be inferior to what you get at a restaurant, but... it tastes warm."

Oh, yeah!

I instinctively wanted to say it out loud, but I held myself back.

A warm taste, huh?

Maybe that's what home-cooked meals made by girls are like.

I guess any man would dream of his girlfriend's cooking.

If it's above a certain standard, I think it's delicious.

Or is it a taste that you can't get from eating out?

What do you think about that in terms of the skills God has given me?

"I prefer Filia's cooking."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah, I love this taste."

There's no way I wouldn't be happy to hear that.

Anyone would be happy if they were praised.

It makes me want to try harder to make it next time.

"I wish I could live like this forever..."

I agreed with that.

When I think about the outside world, I realize that it's a dream or an illusion.

But still... I want to continue this lifestyle for just a little while longer.

I pray to God.

I'm sure I've made a wrong choice somewhere and am heading towards a sad ending.

But I hope that at least the ending will be one that makes me feel that Trust was happy in his final moments.

I want Trust to be free from fighting now.

I know I'm just saying selfish things.

Running away, running away, running away... I keep running away, but I still want to make him happy.

That's what I hoped.