+18 IF Route 2: Chapter 7: Something in The Skin of a Girl ♀

I was staring blankly at the kodachi.

No, to be precise, I'm thinking about the girl who was holding the kodachi.

My dead body appeared alongside the necromancer Luries.

Why did she defy her master, Luries?

Although she spoke it herself, it gave me something to think about.

...If she is really me...

If I were in her situation, I'd probably do the same thing.

That's how much I hate the heroines.

I understand that things like love and romance are things that change.

Due to a combination of various circumstances, they no longer liked Trust.

Since it is a human heart, I guess it can't be helped.

However, it was the heroines who betrayed their lovers.

Yet there has been no apology, and instead they put their own faults aside and speak ill of Trust.

How can I forgive such a hopeless person?

That's why I was able to understand the murderous intent she had directed at her.

Or maybe it was just my own feelings.

If she is my body, then that's entirely possible.

"Then Hero-sama, Holy Spirit-sama, please call me if you need anything!"

Before I knew it, a soldier had led me and Trust into a tent.

The soldier quickly disappears from the tent.

...Trust is more important now.

I hate her, but she was Trust's lover.

Trust also witnessed the scene of his ex-girlfriend being killed while begging for her life.

Even though she was the one who betrayed him, it must be mentally tough for him.

"Trust-sama, please."

I stretche out my arms and poses as if embracing Trust.

There are times when I just want someone to hug me without saying a word.

Of course, in many cases, it is rare to find someone like that, and as adults, we cannot easily rely on anyone.

But, well, that's the kind of relationship Trust and I have.

"Filia!"

Trust called out that and gave me a hug.

It adheres tightly and strongly.

A man's muscles are visible even through his clothes.

A sturdy body envelops my small one.

I don't know if it's because I'm a girl and I'm soft, but I don't feel bad about it.

After a few minutes of hugging each other, Trust pulled away.

"Are you okay now, Trust-sama?"

"Yeah,... that girl is interesting."

...Hmm? Huh?

I thought he was hurt by Luries's death, but his reaction is different from what I imagined.

That girl, it refers to my body, right?

"Umm... As for the necromancer..."

I ask modestly.

Or rather, I wasn't really sure what to ask.

From my point of view, the heroines are nothing but enemies.

"Luries, huh..."

Trust's eyes were cold as he muttered that name.

No, it's a mixture of emotions, including contempt and indifference.

Eventually, Trust's attention returned to me and he muttered awkwardly.

"I might be insulted for saying this, but I don't care about Luries."

--I don't care.

Did I hear that right?

The young man who was the protagonist in the game said to the heroine, "I don't care."

Well, that was the way he acted before we even left.

Ah, no... that is, if he really think so.

"Filia."

"Y-Yes."

Trust took my hand with a serious expression.

I couldn't help but nod, but I had no idea what was going to happen next.

Of course, Trust's emotions can be read from his eyes and facial expressions.

I know that much, but I don't understand it at all now.

All I know is that Trust's mind is normal.

"I now understand what's important."

"What do you mean...?"

If I just take the words, I can somehow understand the meaning.

It's a matter of choice.

Once you decide what you want to prioritize in your actions, you can move forward without hesitation.

The reason I act with Trust, wanting him to be happy, is because this is a high priority.

Trust looked serious, took a deep breath, and said:

"Filia, I love you."

"Yes, I love you too."

Is that so?

I knew Trust had feelings for me, so I naturally returned the favor.

However, Trust looks a bit unhappy.

"Filia, I love you."

"I-I love you too."

When I was told the same thing, I replied back, feeling embarrassed.

I don't know why I said it twice.

However, Trust still looks gloomy.

"Filia, I love you."

"……"

This time I couldn't reply.

I don't even know why.

...No, it would be more accurate to say that I tried not to think about it.

I may be a former man, but I'm still a man.

I like Trust, and I like him as a member of the opposite sex.

The burning sensation I felt in my heart when I drank the love potion still lingers to this day.

However, I still feel a bit unsure about it.

It's an extraordinary relationship where we're both physically close, so I'm sure I will respond as much as he wants if asked.

Yet I hide an important part of myself.

But that can't be helped.

There's no point in telling Trust that I'm originally a man, and I have no intention of telling him.

However, it is true that there is a part of me that is undecided in my own mind.

...He can see right through it.

"Filia is more important than anything."

...Even though I'm a former man, it did work a little.

I started to waver.

I guess the women in me have encroached on me to some extent too.

Well, that's a good thing considering what's to come.

"That's why I decided to do whatever it took to get Filia."

In other words, Trust realized that I wasn't truly in love with him.

Of course I like him.

He's my favorite among men.

I also have feelings for the opposite sex for him.

But I'm a former man.

I can't help but feel concerned about the impurity that men feel because we are of the same sex.

So I can't like everything about him.

At least, for now.

"……"

But I didn't want to make excuses.

...I'm a man.

I find myself continuing to shout this.

As long as I have memories of being born as a man, I can't erase them.

If I erase it, I won't be me anymore.

Still, if that's what the Trust wants...

Suddenly...the face of the girl I saw today came to mind.

The girl's face is exactly the same as mine now.

The girl said that she had wanted to comfort Trust.

For some reason, my heart is pounding.

Trust needs me now.

But I'm resisting because I'm a former man, because I was a man.

That's only natural for a man, but what if... well, what if that girl really was thinking about Trust?

Maybe she will become friends with Trust.

Maybe she's not a fake pretending to be a woman like me, she's the real deal.

If so, I think she would suit him.

But somehow I don't like it.

...I know.

This is the emotion known as jealousy.

I think I'm a troublesome person.

If I don't want my Trust to be taken away, then just accept him and become his lover or whatever.

If I can't give up being a man, then just refuse.

I know that, but it's painful because it's not that easy.

That's why.

That's why I can only say it in such a complicated way.

"...Can you help me forget?"

Trust fell silent as I muttered in a small, trembling voice.

Then, with a gentle smile, but with something hidden in the depths of his eyes, he said:

"Yes, I'll turn Filia into a woman who can only think about me."

Trust knows nothing.

I'm sure there were things he wanted to ask, like what I was that I want to forget.

Or perhaps he thought that whether he knows or not, it would be the same thing.

But I was happy about that.

Even if I had been asked, I wouldn't have been able to answer.

...Okay.

"Please, do as you like."

I don't know if I'll actually be like that.

It's possible that this could happen if the Hero gets serious and uses his cunning tactics.

So I'll treat it as usual.

That's why I came to this world.

"Okay. Just like always... No, I'll do it even better than usual."

In short, we'll just get started like this.

Well, seducing someone with pleasure is the most basic of basics.

"On top of that, I have a request for Filia, is that okay?"

"Have I ever disobeyed Trust-sama's wishes?"

"...No."

"So please tell me anything."

I attack him with words and actions that men seem to like.

I know Trust loves this sort of thing.

On the other hand, it wouldn't be bad to turn him into a man who can only think about me.

…Am I saying this because it has already happened?

"From now on, if you think I'm even a little bit good, please tell me you love me."

"Okay. I love you."

I answered immediately, and Trust looked troubled.

"That's fine for now, but don't forget my request, okay?"

But it seems my feelings weren't conveyed.

I don't know how it was conveyed, but I didn't mean to say anything inappropriate.

As I thought earlier, I like Trust the most out of all the guys.

I also have feelings for the opposite sex for him.

So there's no falsehood in my feelings of love.

"I really love yo--... hmph?!"

In the middle of my sentence, my lips sealed onto mine... in short, it was a kiss.

Naturally, it's not just a kiss, it becomes something deeper.

It was easy to imagine from his previous words and actions.

"Mmmm....Ahh...."

The soft, rough feeling of the tongue sliding in made me understand immediately.

We have kissed each other many times before.

At first, I had some reservations about being kissed by a guy, but as the number of times increased, my will to resist waned.

I have attacked him before, but unfortunately I have never won.

In fact, I've never been able to win over Trust in most things, including sexual matters.

At best, I am aware that I am the prettiest girl.

It's not like the other person was ugly, and I was a good-looking young man, I think. But when I compare him with myself from when I was alive as a man, I feel like I lost.

"Hmm... ngh..."

Trust's kissing is as good as ever, and just the feeling of his tongue tracing the inside of my mouth makes my body tingle.

It penetrates deeper than ever before, stimulating sexual sensations.

"Slurp...slurp..."

Gradually, the inside of my mouth becomes moist and warm.

The sound of our tongues intertwining became more intense, and I felt something rising up from my stomach.

"Slurp...slurp..."

I am horny.

My body had already become excited just by kissing.

Although I knew about it, the shock was greater than I had imagined... my mouth was violated as if to erase those feelings.

"Ngh... ngh... ngh..."

I am forced to drink the mixed saliva that has accumulated.

There's no disgust in this either.

My body reacted reflexively with a twitch, but before I knew it, his hands were around my back, supporting me, and the kiss became deeper, disappearing into the back of my throat.

Then the organ that shouldn't exist swallows the saliva, causing the body to get increasingly hot.

"Ugh...slurp...chuu..."

We had sex many times.

This is true even after I become the body of the Holy Spirit, and he knows this body well.

So the body reacts.

I know something good will happen after this.

"Phew... haa... haa..."

He releases my mouth and I take in a lot of air.

Lack of oxygen...I don't know if it's something in my body, but the deep kiss makes my head feel dizzy.

"Filia, I love you."

"……Hiik."

He whispered so close that I could almost feel his breath, and my body reflexively shook in response to the tickling sensation and the meaning of the words.

I know that.

Because that's what's always in demand.

I feel so embarrassed that he just told me today that he loves me.

So I instinctively try to look down, but Trust's hand blocks my way.

"Hmmm…"

He stroked my hair from the side, combing it so that my cherry-colored hair flowed.

Even that feels good.

"I love you too..."

It's embarrassing to say it again.

Still, I looked away and muttered softly, and Trust showed a happy expression.

...A maiden!

I am a former man!

It's where pleasure and affection mix together to become love!

Just a kiss turned me into a woman!

"Mmmm... mmm... slurp..."

Contrary to what I was thinking, Trust got excited when I told him I loved him and we resumed kissing.

And just by Trust's tongue tracing the inside of my mouth, all the emotions I had just felt vanished.

There's no doubt I am losing the game of tactics between men and women.

Hmm... I'm a very easy woman for Trust, but it's difficult to make me fall for him completely.

With this in mind, I push my tongue into Trust's mouth.

"Hmmmmmm...!?"

Immediately afterwards, my hips jumped up as pleasure crept up from under my legs.

Although it cannot be seen because we are kissing, Trust's fingers are digging into my genitals.

Although it was through the fabric of ny panties, it felt different from touching me directly, and it made the inside of my vagina tingle.

And it's not like kissing is any more appropriate... I can't think clearly.

"Slurp...ngghh...!"

Fingers...probably the middle finger was digging in along the line of my slit, and the other fingers were touching the area around my genitals.

The whole hand vibrates slightly, as if causing a spasm in the lower body, and it feels really good.

Any desire to retaliate through pleasure had now disappeared somewhere.

"Mmmm...chuu..."

As my mouth and genitals are played with, my body goes limp.

However, that doesn't mean the torture will ease up, as my mouth and genitals are ravaged.

Then his fingers stroked me like a snake's path...

"Ngyuu...!?"

My clitoris was flicked with a snap.

That alone makes my body bounce so much that it feels like I'm going to climax.

However, as if to say that this won't be enough to make me cum, the stimulation weakens.

"Mmh... slurp... hah..."

The tongue that had been ravaging the inside of my mouth was pulled out, and our lips were further separated.

When we separate, the thread hangs down.

I stared at it blankly, breathing heavily.

"I'd like to do more, but you can't talk if your mouth is covered, right?"

Trust said as he gently pushed me down onto a simple bed set up inside the tent.

I had no intention of resisting from the start, but even if I had, it would have been difficult.

It was such a lewd kiss.

"I lo--...."

I started to say something but hesitated.

I'm an easy woman, but I'm not a cheap woman.

I like things that feel good, but I don't just like pleasure.

In these cases, the other person is important...huh?

...Probably, or rather absolutely, the only man I'll fall in love with in the future is Trust.

This is just how my body is made, and above all, I'm pure-hearted.

I find myself thinking twisted thoughts like "innocent" (lol), but my ideal woman is someone who, once she is united with one man, will never betray him for the rest of her life.

In other words, I'll love Trust for the rest of my life... right?

"~~~~~~~~~~"

This is bad.

It was a thought that should not have been noticed.

And, well, if I don't have Trust, I will never have sex.

My body is in a state where I can't even masturbate... No, even before that, this body cannot be maintained without a supply of semen from Trust.

Ah, what's that...? Isn't this a scenario where defeat is inevitable from the start?

"Ahhh?!"

I was thinking about something completely different and was caught off guard.

There was a wet oval shape on my panties from the slit, and Trust's fingers were tracing it as if to spread it open.

It feels so good that my body goes into spasms.

Both the vagina and uterus are already beginning to emit a soft, sweet sensation.

"Haa... mmm, ah... haa..."

Perhaps because I no longer needed to support myself thanks to the folding bed, Trust added another finger and began to fondle my genitals through my panties.

Even if I try to close my legs, I can't withstand the man's strength, and it feels so good that I can't even muster any strength.

However, when he touches me, my body starts to twitch.

"Mmh... Ahh... Ahh..."

While I was writhing in agony, the inside of my vagina became more and more moist, and the stain on my panties began to spread.

The fingers playing with my vagina were dripping with love juice, proving that my body was fully developed.

Suddenly, my gaze met Trust's.

"Let's take it off."

"Y-yes…"

Now I am left to my own devices like a well-trained puppy.

If I had a tail, I would surely be wagging it shyly.

"Huh…,……"

Trust picks up the string of my panties and pulls them down.

The action was so embarrassing that I looked away.

"Then let's continue."

Saying this, Trust placed his finger on my genitals, which were now without panties, at the opening of my vagina.

Love juice was already oozing out from there and it was sticky.

This applies not only to the vaginal opening but to the entire genitals, so I can experience the effects of caressing firsthand.

"Hmm... hmmmm..."

His finger sinks into the hot, oozing vaginal opening.

The man's fingers...longer and thicker than my own, penetrated deep inside, rubbing my erogenous zones.

"Ahhhh…"

The voice that naturally leaked out became sweeter and sweeter, and I realized that I was no longer in a relaxed state.

However, this is something I've experienced many times before during sex.

So it's only natural that it feels good, and there's no need to make a fuss about it now.

All I have to do is keep moaning until Trust is satisfied.

I find myself in a state of semi-desperate mentality.

"Ahh...ahh...ngh..."

Using the knuckles skillfully, the pads of the fingers rub against the hard bones of the joints on the top and bottom.

It feels so good that I involuntarily tighten my vagina, making it even closer.

My love juices were also making the thrusting smoother, and now my body was causing me pain.

"Mmmmm... Ahhh...!"

The remaining fingers are used to rub my stomach and press on my clitoris.

Then, that area, which was like a pleasure switch, was skillfully peeled back and the contents that rose to the surface were picked up.

"Higyuun...!?"

A sudden electric shock hits my field of vision, and my body jumps.

Meanwhile, fingers were being inserted and removed from inside my vagina...I was starting to go crazy.

The spot that feels good just by being touched is rubbed with the pads of his fingers and slips out.

The way he inserted his fingers was not constant, but varied in speed, and my head was filled with pleasure.

Large beads of sweat, typical of the Holy Spirit, were floating on my body, and my uterus was twitching, craving him.

I naturally let out moans, which were mixed with a lot of rough breathing.

"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!?"

Before long, my whole body was trembling with pleasure, my vision was blurred and white... and I reached climax.

I clenched my vagina and desperately grabbed onto the sheets of the cot.

Even after becoming a Holy Spirit, our physical compatibility is excellent.

The quality of the pleasure is incomparable to the masturbation I experienced when I was a man.

It just feels good.

A pleasure that makes you feel like nothing else matters, something you want to feel forever.

It was a wonderful moment that those born as men could never experience.

Once again, my heart is rewritten to that of a woman.

"Haa... haa... hah!?"

As I came back from my orgasm and sighed with flickering thoughts, I was soon hit by a new wave of pleasure.

There is no room for slack anymore.

Still, some words came to mind.

That was a promise.

I want to say 'I love you'

I want to keep saying 'I love you'

But that won't do.

Why? How come?

"Hmm... I love you, I love you... ahhh... but, it's not..."

There was no longer any rationality.

Everything that comes out of his hands feels good, and yet I resist.

"What's the difference?"

"Just because it feels good doesn't mean I love you!"

Ah...I see.

As I was engulfed in the whirlpool of pleasure, I realized my true feelings.

It's fun to do naughty things with Trust.

It feels good, it's fun, and it helps me forget about the bad things.

But I don't want to indulge in pleasure.

"I'll never be like that woman... ngh... who chooses her partner based on pleasure!"

Immediately after shouting this, Trust stopped moving.

The fingers inside the vagina and the fingers playing with the clitoris.

"Haa… haa…"

With the supply of pleasure stopped, breathing naturally began to repeat and the body stabilized.

The smoke in my heart is also rapidly clearing.

"Filia, I really do love you."

Trust said this again as he pulled his finger out of my vagina.

"Hmm... I know."

"I want to make you mine, even if it means using pleasure or whatever."

"……"

I know Trust loves me like crazy.

It may sound strange to brag about it myself, but I used the skin of Filia to gain favor with Trust.

I am cute, devoted, and accepts all of a man's weaknesses.

How could you not fall in love with such a convenient girl?

When I met the girl today who looked exactly like me, I was hit with a painful realization.

"But I also want to respect Filia's feelings."

"...I think it's great. I love you."

As I promised, I said it because I thought you liked me.

But sadly, I love you.

"Trust-sama, I'm a liar."

"I see..."

"A wolf in sheep's clothing... no, a pig in sheep's clothing."

Something disguised as a beautiful girl.

I disguise myself as a cute girl and seduces men.

The former man hides his true feelings with soft expressions, but that's just how it is.

What else can you call this but a disgusting liar?

Trust is pure, honest, and considerate of others, but I can't do that.

And I'm not strong enough to tell the truth.

So I am a pig.

An ugly pig who is jealous of a girl who looks just like me, despite being a man.

"Then why don't we do it like this?"

Trust made the suggestion knowing that I was hiding something.

"Filia, please deceive me."

"Eh?"

"You can say whatever you want in your mind. You can curse me. You can lie."

"……"

"But please deceive me until the end."

To the end...

If you keep telling a lie until the moment you die, it becomes the truth.

At least in that person's mind.

I'm sure that would be a happy thing.

"...Are you sure that's okay?"

"Yeah, if I do that, I'll get Filia, right?"

It's a little scary to think that he expects so much from me.

But it didn't feel bad.

--Make up your mind, me!

I'm a woman, I've been a woman since the moment I was born.

The man I was, was never existed. There was just a girl named Filia from the beginning.

Well, it's not that difficult.

If I don't say it, no one will know.

In fact, if I told anyone, they would probably just think I was crazy.

It's all just my problem.

"I love you, Trust-sama. I love you with all my heart."

As soon as I said those words, I felt like a burden had been lifted.

All that's left is to deceive him until the end.

It's okay because I've always liked Trust.

This statement is 90% true.

"I've been trying so hard to endure it up until now..."

My voice was meltingly sweet and my body was boiling hot.

The heart of a girl who has transformed into a woman is seeking a man...no, Trust.

And I will make him take responsibility for what has been done to me, for this pain.

This is because I know that men are happy when their wives ask for small indulgences.

"Then I'll make up for all the things you've been holding back."

Trust declared that, and I returned a lewd smile.

Anticipating the intense pleasure that is about to come...