He has ulterior motives!

Ahh,

I gently open my eyes. Eyes still wet.

I feel refreshed especially and I mean especially when I Am with my plushie veedel.

"potchi~"

"Ahhh" hugging veedel closer and closer to my body,

"haaa" bite biting it's long ear.

Wait? Was my voice always like this?

Amidst my confusion, looking at the rabbit plushie I am holding.

Was my hand always like this? wierd... and also I feel so light. hmm...

Thinking something was wrong

I briefly check where my phone is.

Ah f is it 1 oclock again.

Hmmm wait tha-, And there I saw a reflection that was not mine.

A girl with black hair, crimson eyes that shine brightly, under her eyes is eyebags so bad..., pale white skin, flat chest, a decadent look, looking straight at me, a beautiful and adorable face.

hmm a very petite figure? Not like I have much to say... though im only this saying because of her very pure and innocent look. Which is nice...

It would not even be wrong, to call her the progenitor of a certain bloodsucking immortals.

After a split second of thinking this, I intuitively think that there is something wrong.

Looking at it again, eyes looking at me, I still see the resemblance.

This... Is?

Wait... is this... really happening?

Like really happening to me?

I immediately think of something that might have caused this.

Definitely did not write any 5700 word essay, curse the author, click any suspicious links, or any thing of that manner, or begged someone or something...

So God does exist...

Still looking at the reflection, I went and look at my eyes, it's still the same.

ah, I forgot.

My name is Alice Rachel E.(ellise) Gardener.

My birthday is march 25

I'm 16, I like hugging my plushie to sleep, and sometimes go to sleep with only dolphin shorts.

Ah man sleeping with only dolphin shorts or boxer is so comfy. You understand why right?

Right?...

Everyone always says that my name sound like a girl would have.

But really? What can I even do man...

Doesn't help the fact, that ONE time when my teacher was calling each of the students names for their grades and attendance I was not called.

Thinking that maybe they miss it or I was just not paying attention but Nope, I was mistakenly put in the girls section.

Sigh...

"One time" let me correct that, it did not just happen one time, two times, or third times it happened for a whole 1 and a half months , yes a whole 1 and a half months before they finally change it sigh.

During the pandemic, not knowing what to spend my time on, I spend most of my time watching anime. Oh, and occasionally manga too.

But now? after covid, I have switch and fall into the rabbit hole of ln, manga, wn, manhwa, manhua, webtoon, and wattpad. Truely a rabbithole that can even be called "Made in abyss".

I've read a minimum of 2k works~ to a maximum of 5k works in the span of this past few years.

Lately it seems that the light novel that i've been reading is leaning into one type of "genre".

And yes as you might have guess, its the "genderbender" or the "pure love genderbender". Truely peak fiction as I might add.

Specifically the "straight" ones cough.

Tho

I have never truely understand why I dislike or just generally don't like yuri, I did read some?, Im not the type of guy... to self insert anyways, or did I just not know about it and all this time I have been subconsciously doing it?

hmm...

So what I'm trying to say is that.

I've definitely read a lot of genderbender, to the point that I can't even find a new one.

The only option now is to read it from the source itself... Or raw. TS straight...

But I have, never in my whole life think that a situation just like this would actually happen to me.

Anyways,

Don't all... genderbend mc always fall for the first guy...

or their best friend...

Man, Max is blessed cough to have a friend like me. I mean whats the point of resisting...

when female corruption is inevitable... yeah definitely because of that.

No, its definitely not because of "that", Its all max fault for teasing me... time for payback hehe.

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"holy!"

thats actually insane tho, not only is my body healthy; crimson eyes; the "best" skin; a beautiful face and adorable at it too; and did I also mention that I have pale white skin? yes pale white skin.

Yeah, people would kill for a body like this not even joking.

Today is sunday.

I quickly type a message to Max.

8:37 pm

"I got a suprise for you <3"

heh.

Max-"What is it?"

Max-"Is it a present?"

Max-"1 chicken, 1 burger stick, 1 coke float pls, thank you"

"thats way too much, but no"

Max-"Its atleast food right?"

"Well you could say that ahahah"

Max-"G?"

"Open"

Ah,

I forgot about my Parents.

Wait, with a voice like this calling for them would be bad, I try to deepen my voice or make it atlease natural.

"Mom" "Dad" "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

tap tap tap tap tap Thud Thud Thud hmmm thats quick.

Though I might have not over react at the fact that I suddenly changed gender, My parents definitely will.

"mom!, mom, dad!, dad, I-I turn into a girl"

Like a child that doesn't know what to do, I just blanky stare in front.

My mom

Amelie E. Gardener

she is 42 and her birthday is july 26.

Brown eyes, a stunning face, and looking at me with worried and anxious face.

My dad

Erickson E. Gardener

he's 42 and his birthday is

june 15.

Brown eyes, sharp feature, a handsome face, and looking at me with a confused face.

sigh

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After what feels like a bothersome and unproductive

Q&A, I was finally free!.

"Alice~ dinner is ready"hearing the distinctively sweet voice

"Ah wait"

'hmmm let me check my phone'

-one unread messages

-nice g, Alice.... Are you free?

"Why?~"

'hahahaha, feeling a sudden weight in my eyes, what am I doing with my life man...'

-nothing at all

classic max haha.

This is just a joke? Right...

10mins...

"Time to eat"

"Yes mother"

Honestly it might seem late to feel this way now but, im actually feeling nervous. From the TS and stuff.

Even though things have finally settle down after all of that.

I'm still nervous for no reason

I look at both of my parent faces, yeah looking at this it seem that it's gonna be alright. haha

"ummm dad, mom what about school?"

I asked wanting to know how they are gonna hide the fact i've changed gender.

"Will talk about this with the school staffs, you dont have to worry about it" dad said, reassuring me that every things gonna be okay.

"what about my clothes?"

"We will buy it later"

After having finished eating I instantly go toward my room.

"Ahhhhhhh finally" I jump on to the bed while hugging, and cuddling veedel.

I fall asleep

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July 16 2026

"You are gonna be late! for school, alice wake up!"

ah god...

I briefly checked my phone to see the time.

7:00 am, again...

Even though I always maintain a honors every grade, I still cant get rid of my habit of being late.

after showering

Shouldn't I find this repulsive?

I mean if we are being honest

not only did I change gender my body also change.

But not only did I feel fine,

I also did not feel any aversion

when showering 'other than a little akward and shy?' that any genderbend mc should have...

Maybe its just my personality? eh

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How do I know things that only a girl would have?

I mean it's kinda wierd that I can act like this is normal.

it's wierdly convenient that I atleast know the basic stuff.

No... I did not have any prior knowledge about any of this.

I guess you could call it "instinct"

hmm... noh... yes, you can call it on a Conceptual level.

Why? cause even though      knowledge that I should not know, I intuitively think that I always know it.

"yes mother"

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In the school 7:45 am

Wearing my favorite hoodie and with it's distinct design.

I quickly walk to find our classroom.

And there he is.

Max or Maximillian Josh P.(Phillip) Mathias.

The same age as mine.

and his birthday is only 1 day apart from mine, March 24.

My best friend Max.

A face that could kill, decadent eyes, aloof, a cute face(only her), head is nice to scratch..., fluffy cheeks, and a well defined body and muscles, now that one, I can confidently say that's true(she check).

Black hair, brown eyes; sunny mischievous, shameless and a straightforward personality.

Always teasing me... making me go spend money... so that we eat together...

I mean you gotta play for the bit you know. For the bit...

Its time for payback!

I'm gonna capture that stupid face.

I make sure that my phone is conventionally placed so that I can picture in front of me.

Max looks confused then quickly turn to normal.

It's definitely because of the fact that im wearing what is commonly known as a "skirt". yes, a skirt and in a full girls uniform at it too.

Even though my gender changed and my face probably did also... he will still recognised me. Right?

Right?...

Well... he should know that it's me especially when im wearing

my favorite hoodie.

But he quickly reacted like its "oh i see", this f*cker even though I cant read his mind, I definitely know what his thinking.

I walk tap tap tap tap tap toward him and whisper in the sweetest voice that I can.

"Max~⁠♡... I got a suprise for you⁠♡, follow me⁠♡"

I take a look at his face

wow he's completly flustered.

hehe nice

tap tap tap tap tap

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"So Max, I've turn into a girl"

I said like im just greeting someone.

"Congrats"

Yeah nice, plan is in control...

He probably think I did a surgery or something.

"I don't have that anymore"

"did it hurt? well thats definitely a surprise wow"

I lean into his ear to whisper

once again in the most sweetest voice possible

"Max~⁠♡, thats not it⁠♡... its not what you are thinking♡"

huff huff huff hah hah

Man... his breathing is so rough. Alice face flushed

My ears are really sensitive okay?

Alice grinned

I walk over towards my original place, emphasizing once again.

"I can give birth"

"ahahaahahhahahahahhshhahaha, ah that feels nice look at you being flustered, well what did you fall for? my new face? my gender? or..."

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Yeah, thats definitely way to much.

looking at Max,

with a face completely red.

"ahem"

cough

"Wait really? you are not joking right?"

"Wanna check?"

"No, no, no .., I mean its just hard to believe"

"Well, it is what it is"

Not only did I feel satisfied from max reaction, I also managed to get a total of 20 picture no... 20 "masterpiece"

Heh

"So... are you free later?"

eh? eh eh... Raising an eyebrow at that question.

"Why?"

I said trying to bait a response.

"My treat"

I keep getting this feeling and now I think it's true.

bay harbor butcher meme.jpg

Is Max gay?

I mean I'm just joking? Okay?          But  Is Max gay?

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hmmm

hah

You think I am gonna fall for you so quick huh Max? thats where you are wrong. I'm a bonafide straight male!.

Sigh...

Looking up at the sky...

The empty sky,

devoid of stars.

Sigh what am I doing with my life.

You know,

I want something genuine... I want to prove that if ever,

I'm in "love" that it's genuine.

So when I get TS, is it still genuine?

Contrary to popular belief                I am actually quite shy at love, when I know that my feelings of "love" is genuine I am actually quite shy, but... When It's not, I can be the most shameless person there is. Atleast I think so

So do I like Max? No...                            I mean if I'm being honest Max isn't anyone special to me. Sure he is my "childhood friend" and a person who I interact everyday. But sigh... Why am I like this...

Feeling a weight on my eyes        Looking at the sky devoid of stars.

I don't want any external factors to effect my desicion. Maybe I'm just lonely, that I think this is love, even if in nigh infinity that it is, all I know is that it's definitely not romantic love.

So does He like me?, I think so?      He's acting more and more strange lately. Maybe in two years... It's nice to think about it, because it's fantasy.

We're all just playing for the bit you know because it's fun.

Feeling a weight in my eyes.

Sigh                                                      What do I do?...                                      If it did happen.                                  Maybe I'll fck it up like most of the time, spur of the moment and ruined it, ruined what I believe in. That maybe what I'm doing is not what I like...

I just really don't know if I like it or not.

So please...                                                Most of the TS straight I read. Their life gets better, they have a lover to love them equally, to accept their flaws, and maybe feel happy.

So Please...maybe I'll understand ********

What sick joke it is, for my life to still be the same even after all of this.

But still,                                                  even after all of this, I want to decide something for myself, be me, be true to myself. You know?

Looking at the beautiful moon, at the empty sky devoid of stars.                      I feel at peace

'what I'm trying to say is that, I really don't know'

_____________ _____________                    Oh right, where are we going? he never said anything about it.

Considering Max, he probably invited me to eat or sing

But still... I know that.

He has ulterior motives!