Chapter 3:

It's been a week since then...

“Alice” Max turned and waved at Alice, having sensed that Alice won't come, Max walked toward Alice.

Max... agh... Agh Agh

really... it's not like
I like Max or anything, It's just that...

it feels good to tease
Max But why did I kiss him then!?

no... in the first place why do I keep kissing him...
that should be the question no?

But still that's going way too far for just "simple teasing"

But heh

If you truely think about it? Isn't it just a "Spur of the moment?" that's why you could say that, me not thinking straight and then k-kising Max is simply not a decision I truely made on my "own" so what I did back then is...

It does not make sense. What I just think does not make sense ahhhhhh!!! At the very least I still did it! Ahhh

“Oh Alice why is your face red~?
do you have a fever? or are you thinking about...”

Max puts on a disgusting smirk, placing his hand into Alice forehead.

“It's getting hotter, should you just go back home? and I you know, take care of you? no biggie. That's what friends are for" Max, with his truely impressive acting went on to perform a "just helping a friend."

This would have fooled Alice

If not for the fact that Max is putting way too much emphasis on his movement. It's way too exaggerated!!!

'Ah... Max you do know? that it is "Clear as day" to anyone that you are putting an act. I mean really? shrugging,helpless, and even the classic trope of checking my temperature.'

How shameless

Alice give Max an exasperated look.

"I don't have a fever geez, Max it's all your fault"

"Oh? But Alice? why would it be my fault? from what I remember from watching anime is that, the only time it would ever not be a fever is..."

Max leans into my ear and whispers.

"When someone is feeling extremly shy or flustered that their crush is right~ in~ front~ of them~"

Ahh... god... Max breath and his voice... this is too much...

I am really sensitive in my ear you know?!

I might actually get addicted to this...

Max touch my forehead once again.

"See? if it's not a fever? why is it getting hotter?"

Max then stepped back, he wore a smirk then said.

“Oh could it be? Alice, that you like me? that could explain why last time when you k-”

I urgently cover his mouth with both of my arms sensing that he will actually say it, so shameless really.

“...Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, seriously Max that is not something you should bring up in public..." I glare at Max to shutup.

Max seeing that I am mad raises both his arms pleading that he will not do anything bad.

I release both of my arms from his mouth. Feeling that he will now be good.

“So it's okay in private?"

But alas

this guy... is shameless

I clench my fist and with the utmost focus and will, I hit his chest. An owner should discipline her pet.

I'm the owner btw

Alice use Focus punch

it was not very effective.

Ah figures, I mean if I could not inflict harm to Max when I was a boy. I don't think it would actually be more effective when I'm now a girl too.

“Agh!... It hurts! you think you can get away from this Alice?”
Max pinch my cheek.

"So soft..."Max still being greedy knead and stretches the soft texture in front of him.

'Ahh... Max...'

Alice getting her cheek pinch was flustered at the fact that

she is feeling happy from his hand touching her.

"Happy now?"I look at Max face as if being in heaven, his face is pure bliss, really... we glance at each other... silence.

"..."
"..."

“Alice...” Max gaze at my flustered and happy face
'how cute.'

Max still being greedy after all of this, his eyes are now looking at my lips. Who could resist? when their girlfriend, ahem Best bro is like this.

Alice seeing that Max is now staring at her lips turned shy.

“Really... it's not even a day, and yet you can't stop your urge to lust after your own bro? heh this is the kind of greed they talk about in the bible Max. But don't worry Max, the kind person I am, I can give you what you want.”

Yes, it has not even been a day since our last kiss.

Yes, after the time when we first kiss you know... feeling tha-... yes us feeling that it wasn't enough and the mood was great. Since then I cough we get addicted to kissing.

Acting like this is nice...

Alice wraps her hand into Max neck, tiptoed and kisses him.

“MMhhh, Ah... really Max you better take responsibility, MMhhh, Mmmhh, Ah...”

Alice greedily kisses Max.

“Of course Alice~" Max pats her head and embraces her.

'Ahh this feels so nice, why is it that him just patting my head? feel so warm.'
hehe
hehe

"So shameless"
"Hey it's the shameless couple"
"Wow... doing it in school no less..."
"...I knew it..."

Alice and Max getting carried away from the mood forgot about the fact they were still at school.

But having earned the prestigious title of "the shameless couple"
it is not that they forgot, instead they have no shame or simply do not care.

ahem Max and I are a couple? well not really, max and I still haven't confess...
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Alice is bored....

'ahhh...'

Alice being the type to be easily restless or bored found solace

at talking to herself.

'You know falling for the male lead so fast is insane no? I mean not really falling per say, but kissing definitely is!, but can you blame me? Max reaction is just way too good...

You know how bro's always tease each other? Yes that's why, and now with that kind of reaction... Who wouldn't?' you know WHO WOULDN'T! I TELL YOU

'Back when I first teased him with my female voice when I was practicing voice acting, or that time when I crossdress and send him multiple pics. Very manly behavior by the way.'

I glance at Max and he sensing my gaze also glance at me and smile.

'Agh... seriously how can you not help but do it? I just want to toy with him... '

I remember a phrase from one of the novels I read "The ts girl no matter how hard she resists will always fall in love with the male lead." So why resist? yes... why not just give in and be happy? I turn into a girl, for what reason? the reason is simple and that is to fall in love with the male lead.

But I really don't know if this is what I want... but it's fun I guess...

I smiled at Max and slowly weakly say

"I~... Love~... You~...."

since we are far apart from each other, I didn't make any noise but he should understand what I am trying to say right?

Max smiled at me and replied

"I... Love... You... too..."

Agh... really... this guy...
Alice face flushed
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Saturday...
I messaged my parents that I am staying at Max house

Dad:👍

Mom:Take care sweetie, remember that you are now a girl okay?

Alice:Yes

"Ah! Max I just messaged my parents, So I can stay at your house today for a long time..."

Max parents are never home not because they don't have time or not but simply because.

The school that Max and I are attending is far away from his parents house so, they give Max a house that is near the school as simple as that.

Convenient...

"Max~ I'm practicing how to cook, so you better eat everything okay?"

"Yes Ma'am"

"Max~, I'm tired so carry me" Alice having no shame whatsoever ordered Max to carry him even though it is still far from home.

Still the idiot gullible Max hearing this,lifted Alice up and held her like a baby or what people like to call as "princess carry."

Alice wrap her hands at Max neck, clinging to him enjoying the embrace and warmth that Max give.

“Max~ if you hurry up, there is a reward for you.”

Hearing this not skipping a beat sprinted out... ahem his house while holding me.
...

"Put me down~"Alice seeing that his house is now near, gently whisper to Max ear to put her down.

Max gently put me down

"Wait let me go first, stay here"

Max nodded, silently just staring at me.

I gently open the door
Entering the house preparing the reward I said, and having closed the door.

'hehe'
Alice wearing a mischievous smile knocked at the door
signalling Max that he can now go inside.

"So what is the re-"

Max stops at his tracks looking at the girl in front of him, because right now she looks the most loveable and mischievous right now.

"So... You know the trope where you did something for them and you get a reward"
"Yes? Why?"

"Here!, for one day and one day only, I would do everything you ask... As long as it's not too much..."

"Really?" Max smirk
"Yes" Scratch scratch
I moved closer to Max ear
"...Whooooooo, huuuuuuuh gently blow, Good boy~..."
' this brat... '

Looking at Max,
his waist...
I just want to hug it, it must feel nice surely...
his collar and chin, I just wanna snuggle, what word was it again? Yes, rub my face against it, like a cat.

Hehe

Feeling a sudden weight in my eyes.

I just wanna feel loved...
Everypeople fantasize about it
You know? How nice it must be.
I just wanna surrender to autonomy; do nothing in life; have someone decide my decision for me. And be loved...

"...—e..."

You know I have a very liberal view in love.

If society wasn't pushing agenda,
If lust isn't inherent,
If we are not prejudiced,
If we are not biased,
If there are no external factors affecting our decision in life.

Maybe we would be more like this.
I consider it the endgoal of sexuality or love.
And demisexual too, straight from the web "A sexual orientation where a person only experience sexual attraction after forming a deep, meaningful emotional connection with someone"
That is what I consider love.
But just for others to trample on it?
Only for people to decide what I should do?

I might as well Die!, and put a gun in my head, and Bang!
Than let others decide my fate my life.
As I consider finding the meaning of life, or why life is so precious, more important. Than some fake things as blood bonds, and beliefs imposed. It might feel selfish and prideful, but what do I care.

Can you call it genuine love? When your idea of love was made by others? By others view on how someone should live, "to tell someone how to live is to prevent them from living"
But I truely don't have anything to say.

Feeling a weight in my eyes
'Does it even make sense...'